05.30.12 | Shame Free Days: 84

05.29.12 | Tuesday: Fat Tuesday

I’m annoyingly fucking fat. I haven’t posted in ages. I’ve been busy. Holidays, I hate them. And I’ve mostly only maintained my weight for the last two weeks and haven’t lost much. But today, I’m super triggered. I ate salad for breakfast with a glass of tea. And I don’t really plan on eating much more.

Even though I usually prefer to go to the gym and eat my 500-600, I don’t even want to do that because I really don’t want to eat. I hate myself even more than normal and all I want right now is to feed myself as little as possible. Well, that’s not all exactly, but I haven’t got time to explain fully. I’ll write another obnoxious personal post about that later…

05.29.12 | Shame Free Days: 83

because feeling hungry is better than feeling fat.

I’m still here. I’m still fat.

I’m shocked that I’ve been so busy. I’m not used to being around so many people and being so social. I’ve got a bunch of dumb shit on my mind, but not a lot of time for it right now. I will ramble about it tomorrow.

I just wanted to say hi really quick.

Hi :D I hope everyone is doing well, staying strong and all that stuff we always want.

God I wanna eat everything I see.

Jeez. I hate this time of night. I’ve been up so long, haven’t eaten since six and wanna eat so bad. But I really can’t eat. I have to be so careful if I wanna make my next GW. And I’m fucking fat anyway. The last few weeks have sucked for number since I’ve been so busy that I can’t afford to mess up now. And I’ve got so many shame free days I would hate to blow that :/ but god damn I want to eat.